Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Sabbatical coming to an end
I report back to work on Friday at the Cathedral on the first day of diocesan convention -- certainly a busy time for re-entry. My first Sunday back will be November 1st. I will visit St. James', Zion Street this coming Sunday.
Not fully prepared to offer lasting comments on my collective sabbatical time at this point. Only that it has truly been a wonderful time of rest and study and travel and re-connection with family. A real gift: thank you Lilly Endowment. I return with a continued sense of calling to my pastoral work in Hartford and I look forward connecting to the folks at the Cathedral.
I waited 18 years for this time away: it was well worth it!
Monday, October 5, 2009
A Week Among Monks
The bulk of my sabbatical leave has been spent in the company of others: an incredible journey across our country by train with Leslie and the kids in July, a thrilling trip to England with the Cathedral choir to be in residence and sing evensong in the great Ely Cathedral, and even my days sitting with my mother in her nursing home in West Hartford. All good things, but not the emptying quiet found in the company of monks who know a few things or two about silence.
Silence during meals is the most jarring for this visitor. Mealtime in our home is usually registered in decibels. In Benedictine monasteries, meals on days except Sundays are eaten without conversation. A monk is chosen to read aloud to the community.
It is a wonderful to be just a few paces from the abbey church to take in the services of the day: Lauds at 7 a.m., Eucharist at 11:15, Vespers at 5:30 p.m. and Compline at 7:15 p.m. I am a mere participant with no responsibilities to prepare, officiate, be “on” and shake hands at the door. My mind can wander, I can lose my place, I can look up and gaze. The Abbey liturgy is familiar to me as an Episcopalian and its monastic call to hospitality offers me an acceptance into Eucharistic fellowship that is often denied to non-Roman Catholics in parish churches under diocesan oversight. Here I am a pilgrim and a soul looking for some time away and have been warmly welcomed.
Monks are people that still make us marvel at how and why they do what they do. For a community to still be following the Rule of Saint Benedict that dates from the 6th century is a witness that the call of a life of prayer and study in community is timeless. What it is that so many modern people and believers wrestle with:? that they seem to be alone in this world to navigate times of pain, loss and doubt. Our American individualism, our “do it by yourself, up from the book strap” mentality can ring hollow in today’s complex and interconnected world. What a visitor sees and feels in today’s monastery – this Abbey in the rural South – it that the Spirit grows stronger in community. We are never fully alone. We are left alone for a while to work out particular way in this world, confront our demons, and to cultivate what is means to have a personal relationship with our God. But all in the company of fellow pilgrims.
My favorite part of the day is following behind the monks after vespers to dinner. They walk two by two, lead by Abbot Justin, from the church under covered walkways as the bells ring out. Visitors walk behind them. And then there is Compline. At the close of the service the monks walk down the aisle followed by visitors and as thy near the font, the abbot blesses them with water in great waves, reminding them and us of our common baptism.
The font at the entrance of the nave is a magnate for those who enter the church. It acts like one of the great infinity pools that are so popular -- making it feel as it the waters are falling off into nowhere. I have never been called by piety to dip my fingers into the small holy water receptacles affixed to inner doorways of many Roman Catholic and Anglo-Catholic churches. But to see the baptismal font full of water is something different. There it is. Our baptisms. That is what and why one can dip ones fingers in the water and retrace the sign the cross. We were made Christians in these waters. In and through the water we are reminded of our call to community, to worship God and to see Christ in face of humanity. It is a powerful symbol that makes the most sense liturgically and theologically. It just works.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
A Wonderful Place
Meals are eaten in silence with the monks, with one person assigned to read from a spiritual book. Today's lunch the reading was about the making of the King James' Bible. Funny to be with Roman Catholic Benedictines and listening to tales of the Church of England in the early 1600's.
The silence is wonderful and much needed.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Off to Bake and Pray
http://saintjosephabbey.com/guests-nota.html
I am scheduled to help out in the bakery tomorrow and Monday. Let's hope that goes well.
Friday, September 25, 2009
New Orleans
Thursday, September 10, 2009
It is risen: the bread
The challenge of course is not to eat all of the bread that I am so happily making.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
The Urgency of Me Learning to Cook
One of the foundational purposes of my grant application to the Lilly Endowment was for me to “cross the kitchen” and try my hand at cooking. Food and feeding and hospitality are at the center of what we are called to do as Christians. And, having married a former editor at Gourmet magazine and cookbook author, I have sat at the table and admired and tasted my way through 19 years of married life. How would I fare as a cook?
First, I began this week by baking bread. I had never baked bread before. But with the help of the classic “Joy of Cooking” cookbook and others and incredibly helpful “how to” videos on YouTube, I have baked bread the last two days. I have to say: I like it. I have learned to knead the bread and also how to proof yeast and find a warm place in the house for the rising of the bread. A new world has been opened to me. My first two loafs were ordinary white, and I pushed myself and made rye bread yesterday. The kids have gobbled it up and I have to say it’s pretty good. Not bakery quality, but actually pretty good. Clearly this could be a phase that I tire of quickly, but maybe, just maybe, I might continue…
Perhaps inspired by our recent trip to England and their abundance of Indian restaurants, I announced to Leslie that I want to learn how to cook Indian food. I tackled my first dish last night, the recipe for which I found on the web. I attach the link here: http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Indian-Chicken-Curry-II/Detail.aspx
The chicken curry dish came out really well -- I have to say (and the family agreed) I made some basmati rice to accompany it and also cut up some fresh cilantro to put on top. I doubled the recipe and cut way back on the cayenne powder, as I did not want to overpower the dish for the kids. I also did not use a whole lemon. It is a creamy comfort food type of dish that may just become one of my standards. Next up is lamb rogan josh, a classic recipe from the Kahmir section of India. I always find that I order this dish in restaurants and want to learn how to make it myself. I will also try my hand and baking naan, the Indian bread that is so addictive.
But as I prepared the meal last night, with the house empty and NPR playing on the radio, I actually tried to think about the relaxing quality of cooking. Yes, I had to remind myself to relax and enjoy the cooking experience -- as opposed to just rushing through it and putting something on the table. Clearly, I may not always have a free afternoon to leisurely cut sauté onions and slice chicken into bit size pieces, but on this one day, I did enjoy it. And lo and behold, I learned that I could cook a reasonably complex dish with more than two ingredients and not out of a box.
Today, I baked blueberry muffins from scratch. They’re cooling right now.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Back to Hartford
Monday, August 17, 2009
Choir Residency Concludes
Ely has really an ideal town for our choir to experience for a week.
We are thankful for all those in the Cathedral community who were supportive of this trip.
Friday, August 14, 2009
Pilgrimage to Canterbury
Jake Harney, a verger at the Cathedral in Hartford, got a special treat when I had made plans for him to meet with the vergers of the Cathedral. We both learned some things and will take a few pointers back to Hartford.
Our days have been spent wondering the streets, visiting the Cathedral, reading, eating and even napping. Not a bad stay. Tomorrow back to Ely to join the group.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Choir Tour of Ely, England
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Home at Last! For a week anyway
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Wild Montana: Glacier National Park
We have spent three nights at Many Glacier Hotel, built in 1915 by the National Park service. This rambling old beauty sits on a crystal clear lake surrounded by mountains: glaciers and bears can been seen from the restaurant deck. Leslie and I were fortunate to see a female moose swimming in the lake within a few hours of our arrival.
On our big activity day, Leslie and Lydia went on all-day horseback ride to a glacier lake (the flakes from the glaciers turn the water to an otherworld turquoise) and Will and I went on an hike up the Grinnell Glacier. It was by far the biggest hike I have ever walked (I’m not a hiker). It was an eight mile hike there a back and we climbed 1600’ within an hour and a half (a lot of huffing and puffing) by the view was worth it. I’m glad that Will and Lydia have seen these glaciers in their lifetime because they are receding at an alarming rate. Grinnell Glacier has been losing ice since the 1920’s, so the debate continues as how much global warming is accelerating the melting.
July 24th and Heading East
We head east out of Portland with one week to go on our travels. The Empire Builder departs both from Portland and Seattle, meeting up in the middle of the night in Spokane and joining trains. The trip from Portland moved up the Columbia river gorge and basin for four hours in some of the most spectacular scenery from the window of the train for the entire trip. For hundreds of miles the train skirts the river lined by cliffs, the water often filled in places with wind surfers and sailboats. As the sun sets, I can say that the view exceeds that of the California coast.
The train has been almost problem-free throughout this month. The trains have left on time and have kept to schedule. We were fortunate to have missed a forest fire in northern California that causes the train just two days previously to have been detoured and the passengers shuttled by bus. We saw the embers and fires still burning, which was eerie. When you pay extra for a sleeper car, the meals are included, so we just show up in the dining car and get our meals very quickly. The meals are certainly a step up from airline food (when there was airline food). By in large, the staff and the service on the trains have been very helpful and welcoming – knowing that many passengers are new to long-distance train travel.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Portland, Oregon
After a sleeper car for the night, Leslie and I awoke to look out at Mt. Shasta -- pretty cool. We found that Will and Lydia were pretty much at home on the train. Yesterday we arrived in Portland, Oregon where we are being hosted by the dean of Trinity Cathedral and his wife, Bill and Kimiko Lupfer, who we've met through the annual Dean's conference. After a jet boat trip up to Oregon City on the Wilmette River, we're settling into the afternoon.
Tomorrow we depart for Glacier National Park, the third the last part on our tour.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Our Week In Wine Country
Will turned 17 yesterday. The boy is growing up. I brought him his favorite, a pupusa, which is a Salvadorian tortilla he came to love from our time living in the D.C. area, bought at the St. Helena farmer’s market. Only in Napa would a farmer’s market include cooking lessons from a chef from the CIA.
The rows upon rows of vineyards are quite stunning and I am finding the Napa Valley quite beautiful. The temperature difference between day and night is 50 degrees – reaching into the low 100’s during the day. The differential moves the sugar up and down through the vine and branches and intensifies the flavor of the cabernet and chardonnay grapes for which the region is known.
Our week here is also a needed resting place for each of us to pause a bit and process this whole experience. We have seen so much already and we’re trying to just allow our minds and bodies time to take it all in.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Yosemite: Big Rocks and Big Trees
At the Grand Canyon and Yosemite we've seen many visitors from overseas and have heard countless languages spoken. At 17 and 14, Will and Lydia have already done a fair bit of traveling -- more certainly that Leslie or I did when we were their ages -- but my sense is that this trip has sealed their travel bug infection. Both Leslie and I were AFS foreign exchange students (me to New Zealand for a year in 1980 and Leslie for a summer in Austria the same year). I think Lydia is already plotting her exchange student pathway and Will is thinking about an intensive language book camp in Colombia next summer.
Yosemite National Park in California, where we have been for three nights, has been beyond words beautiful. The rock formations rise dramatically from the ground and the valleys are filled with meadows and trees. In mid-July, the famous waterfalls are still flowing. The one iconic view of El Capitan rock formation is almost gaudy it is so beautiful -- perhaps the most stunning natural setting I have ever seen. We walked among the ancient and giant sequoia tress at the southern most corner of the park -- some of them have been alive for over 2,000 years. They are said to have survived loggers in the 1800's when it was found that the trees shattered into many pieces when they were felled. Their weakness became their strength, as the loggers gave up and moved on to other trees.
Usually on family vacations I reach mid-way and begin to announce with great fanfare and sadness that the vacation is half-over. Not this trip. The experience continues to unfold in new ways and has reminded me of an important lesson: embrace the present. Don't look back with sadness about what can not be done again. And be thankful. Always.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Monterey
Thursday, July 9, 2009
From Coast to Coast
The Amtrak experience has been very positive so far. The sleeper cars on the longer legs have been key.
We met up with college friends of Leslie's yesterday and were treated to dinner at their beach club In Santa Monica. We could see the lights of Malibu as we left. The kids had a great time.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Grand Canyon is Grand
Saturday, July 4, 2009
July 4 in Santa Fe, New Mexico
Friday, July 3, 2009
July 3 Arrived in Kansas City
Friday, June 26, 2009
Itinerary
Pendleton Cross Country Adventure
Wed July 1
Fly from Hartford to Chicago
Thurs July 2
Board train at 3 pm to Kansas City.
Hotel in Kansas City
Fri July 3
All day in Kansas City
Lunch at LC’s BBQ-
Depart by train 11 pm – first SLEEPING CAR
Sat July 4
Arrive in Lamy, NM
Bus Transfer to Santa Fe
Sun July 5
Morning in Santa Fe, Bus to Lamy
Board train from Lamy
Arrive 9:30 pm in Williams, AZ
Stay at Grand Canyon Railway Hotel
Williams to Grand Canyon by steam train
Stay at Maswik Lodge
Depart Grand Canyon for Williams
Dinner at Grand Canyon Railway Hotel
Depart 9 pm by train
SLEEPING CAR
Wed July 8
Arrive Los Angeles 8:15 am
Thurs July 9
Add day in L.A.
Fri July 10
Depart L.A. to travel up California West Coast
Arrive Salinas at stay night in Monterey
Sat July 11
10 am Monterey Bay Aquarium- 3 hour marine biology sail
Visit Pebble Beach
Sun July 12
Drive to Yosemite National Park
Mon July 13
Yosemite
Tues July 14
Yosemite
Whitewater Rafting on the Merced River
Wed July15
Leave Yosemite for house in Napa Valley in town
of St. Helena, CA
One week in Napa
Tuesday July 21
Dinner at Chez Panise, Berkley
Depart San Francisco (Emeryville)
SLEEPER CAR
Wed July 22
Arrive Portland, Oregon 3:40 pm
July 23
All day Portland
July 24
Depart Portland all night train ride
July 25
Arrive East Glacier Park, Montana 10 am
Glacier National Park
July 27
Glacier
July 28
Glacier
July 29
Depart 10 am
ALL DAY in train
SLEEPER CAR
July 30
Arrive Minneapolis 7:05 am
Stay at Mall of America Radisson
July 31
Fly from Minneapolis direct to Hartford
Arrive in Hartford 5 pm
Monday, May 25, 2009
Trip approaching
Monday, March 23, 2009
To some it may seem that I only just arrived to Hartford. I am still introduced by some as “the new dean.” But I can attest, and my graying hair and beard can prove, that I have indeed begun my fifth year at the Cathedral. Next year I have vowed to myself, my family and to God to do what I have not done in 18 years of ordained ministry: I will take a sabbatical. I have twice before taken new church positions right before I would have been given time away to rest, study, pray and travel. Not this time.
Lilly Endowment Inc. is an Indianapolis-based, private philanthropic foundation created in 1937 by three members of the Lilly family through gifts of stock in their pharmaceutical business, Eli Lilly and Company. “What will make your heart sing?” is the question the Lilly Endowment Inc. asks pastors of congregations all across the country every year. And every year for the past nine years their congregations have responded with proposals including remarkable ideas and plans for the rejuvenation of their pastors. During a typical year, about 125 congregations around the country (outside of Indiana) are given a grant.
In May of 2008 I worked with a small committee of Cathedral members to apply for a grant from the Lilly Endowment’s National Clergy Renewal Program, which seeks to “strengthen Christian congregations by providing opportunities for the pastor to step away briefly from the persistent obligations of daily parish life and to engage in a period of renewal and reflection.” In September I learned the good news that the Cathedral was awarded a grant of $45,000 – the only award this year to a Connecticut congregation of any denomination – towards my sabbatical next year. $30,000 will go towards my travel and study expenses, and $15,000 will be available to the Cathedral to pay for supply clergy and other pastoral assistance while I am away.
The title of the application is “The Urgency of Hospitality” and was inspired by my visit to New Orleans for a Cathedral Deans’ Conference in April of this year. What I learned was that in the weeks and months after the storm, there was a public awareness of the healing role that food, cooking and the sharing of treasured and once-guarded family recipes have played in the grieving, loss, celebration, rebuilding and hope of New Orleans and its proud residents. Among other things, my sabbatical will allow me to “sing a new song” and learn to depart for a time from my normal pastoral duties to explore and learn why and how food is so important to families, congregations and cultures. How does food break down barriers between people? Why is it vital to write down and share the family recipes that have been passed down through the generations? What role does food play in times of crisis and in the aftermath of loss? How does cooking and sharing a meal heal our souls?
I look forward to sharing with you more of my plans for this time away at a forum in May of next year. God willing, I plan to be away from July through October, 2009. And I hope to return refreshed, renewed and excited about our ministry that we share in this place in the years ahead.
Blessings, Mark+
After the completion of the three month sabbatical, Mark will return to his ministry at the Cathedral refreshed and renewed and with a greater understanding of the place of hospitality within Christian ministry and a stronger vision about how the Cathedral can extend its mission throughout the city of Hartford and the Episcopal Diocese of Connecticut.